Current mood:relieved
I want to be able to look back and see the things that I have done, and say with full faith, I did what I believed was right, completely, in this situation. I mean, what is worth more, really? Money?, what people think of me?, my driving record?, or how I look back and see what I have done, and if I can feel good about my decision or not. That seems like a good clear choice to me. I can be cleaver any day, I can get what I want anytime I really want, I can do so many things to get my way. Temptation is everywhere, personal gain is so appealing sometimes, but I guess the question is, where are my values. I want to be good in God’s eyes, I want my will to be something that Jesus could look at and be ok with. I want to do what is best, I mean truly good for me and everyone around me, as in how God defines good, in every situation. I guess one could ask why. What is my motivation? That is a question I will have to answer some day, something I will have to figure out. I can’t really put my finger on why at the moment.