Current mood:tired
I am thinking about moving, but I do not know where, or if that would even be the best thing, but then again, I think it would. What my mind likes to do is try and branch out as many possibilities that could happen in the future, and the decisions that could lead to that possible future. Like for example, say in an undetermined period of time, I were to develop a serious relationship with someone who lived a fair distance away from me, what would I do then? Well knowing me as well as I do, I would do what ever it took to ensure the happiness of both people involved. I started out wanting to move up to Everett, or that area at least, so that I can be around friends and family, I know so many people there, and that still is my reason, but then again, the grass is always greener on the other side (I have always hated that concept which is far too true to deny). I also want to be around the right people, good people, perhaps better than I have been surrounding myself with over the last 2 years here. I have found some good people over here, but they are sparse.
I am a strong person, with strong beliefs, and a passion for the things I love and the activities I love to do. I have values that I will not compromise, and that is one of the things that I would like to think makes me a good person. But am I wasting it all away just going day by day working, isn’t there something more for me? I can answer that, yes there is, the real question is, where do I go, what do I do to get there. And then, the biggest issue on my mind, who do I want to take with me, who do I want to do it with. I would love to have someone along with me, perhaps my missing half would be a good description, someone that together we could help make sense of things. Ok, enough of that, don’t want to sound like too much of a pussy, but I am sure anyone reading this gets my drift.
Needless to say, I have been thinking about a lot of things, more so the last 2 months than I have in a very very long time. Things like that tend to happen when certain events happen in your life that waken dormant ideas, thoughts, and feelings, that you were sure you had locked away for good. Great, now I sound like a psychopath. A psycho pussy anyone?